Respect for approaching some strangers, that is still something I cannot bring myself to do. That is worthy of celebration. Its unfortunate it didn't work out as you would have liked, but thats how things unfold sometimes. I am currently in speech therapy, and this is the type of mindset that I am trying to cultivate, by not giving the stammer any of my energy, and just accepting it for what it is, over time it will lessen its iron grip. I am sure that its possible to achieve this on your own, but I am finding therapy is super helpful and nurturing. I highly recommend it.