Anger, rage, hatred. The worst feeling you can ever ever feel. Maybe even worse than sadness. The feeling of something as simple and maybe even uncontrollable like a stutter being so restricting can cause awful feelings. Does the career you really plan to do, require stuttering to be vacant? If not, try to look beyond your stammer, and see life regardless. Stammering is a small part of life in general. If yes, then try to do anything to cure it. Work like hell for it. Cuz life without that stammer is gonna be better, cruel statement I guess, but it is a lot better without the sutter. Try talking in different ways, slow, fast. Know exactly what you will say and speak slowly with arm gestures. EXPERIMENT OVER AND OVER AND OVER AGAIN!! And don't give up. You might think it will never go away, the stutter is hopeless. This is this guy. He was in the news a lot a year ago. He doesn't stutter, his story can be just as intriguing. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uduCU7cazAM That is his story. If he could somehow become the man he is today, why on Earth can't you? You can do it buddy!