This video is about what I went through when I was trying to understand how I stuttered as I was going through the struggle in real time. The biggest impact I got out of stepping back, sort of out of myself as I stuttered to feel whats happening is that I finally realized it always consistently releases on each word...as in each stutter is NEVER indefinite. Now I wanted to separate this line of revelations from stuttering in general, I could definitely stutter indefinitely throughout the situation from one sentence to the next and multiple words in-between, but EACH CONTRACTION in my voice...I don't know if that's the right way to put it but it felt like my vocal cords or what ever it was in me was tightening, I knew each would release! So I delved into that and experimented more with myself in a sense. I began trying to force it out and then I began trying to almost wait it out...both were agonizing needless to say but I needed to see for myself if one helped over the other. The conclusion I realized was forcing it never helped...trying to push it out never helped, it's something I am so used to in my day to day life...if something doesn't work try harder...PUSH! Ya know...but in this case it was the opposite. When I simply repeated the word nice and easy...again...again...until i felt the tightness let go, I'd move on and it felt like this incredible revelation! I realized I could control HOW I stutter in a sense. Before doing this I used to think I just had to force it out or I could stay locked indefinitely but try it out, try to time it and see "hhhmm...when will this tightness let go" because it ALWAYS will and it won't be indefinite. To my surprise I realized it never took too long unless I did the opposite...unless I tried to push it out. This is why i hint at that we kind of have a choice in HOW we choose to stutter...do we prolong the word hoping it would woosh out, do we push it with force even moving our body hoping it helps, or do we take our time with it until we feel that pressure unlock and feel ok I can say it now! ​ i have more to say on this but I don't want this too be too giant of a post, I hope it makes sense to you!