You said, ''sometimes i'm so hopeless that I don't even try...'' Man do I understand that! The best way to explain it is that, to me, that was the part of me that stuttered just fighting the part of me that wanted to stop. It was brutal, taking control of my decisions and just not letting the ''stutter side'' tell me what I was going to do. But I did for months. Again, until I really buckled down and got disciplined, I didn't make much progress. So when you're feeling hopeless or that doing the work isn't worth it, maybe consider that it is your stuttering side telling you that and see if you read out loud alone anyway. (But it's very hard to do. My mind is very hard to overcome, and yours probably is, too.)