Went to a speech therapist 2-3 times. Once when i was in 5th class when my father died. My stammer got more severe around that time but i had it b4 as well. The therapy did help alot and i was a lot better, I don't remember this part but my mother says that i spoke normally for like a month or so. But then it started again. After our fathers death we were kind of living in a hand to mouth situation. Didn't have the money to do the therapy again when the stammer came back. Fast forward all these years. When i got to university, it was the first time i had to present in front of my class. Never got in front of a crowd b4. And of course i was scared to death. Talked to the teacher but she thought facing my fear will be a good step in my recovery. (Spoiler alert: it was the opposite.) I was so scared of the presentation that i convinced my mother to get me speech therapy again. (Had 3 weeks to prepare for the presentation). But at this age it wasn't really working. The doctor said it as well that it has became a habit as well. So after 3 weeks of therapy i was still scared but i decided to face it like my teacher wanted to (another spoiler: i shouldn't have). The presentation went worse than i could've imagined. It was supposed to be a 5-7 min presentation so i prepared a small one which a normal person could deliver in 3 mins. And it took me exactly 18 mins to cover that( thats right. We had a stopwatch). Never gave a presentation after that as it scares me more now than it did b4 i tried. Left the therapy after i got the minimum marks in a presentation which I'm sure i worked the hardest on and spent a shit load of money on therapy for. Started it again for a week or 2, 2 years later, coz the stutter just kept getting worse. Wasn't helping plus it was really expensive for us given that we're only living on pension. So left it again. Now I've just made peace that I'm going to be a worthless piece of garbage with no treatment to fix me.. better not spend more money on this shit.