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I forgot how to stutter Here's an experience I wanted to share here. As a way to practice my speech, I have been making audio journal entries. I usually do it outside when I'm walking. I experiment a lot, like talking fast, talking while doing a voice impression, talking on breath outs, etc. Seeing what works best and what techniques to use to not stutter. It had been about 2 weeks since I did my last entry. But I did it today. After I played it back, I noticed that there wasn't really much stuttering. There were a lot of pauses and blocks because I am very hesitant and anxious when I talk, but there weren't repetitions or struggling. It sounded close to regular speech. This was very different from my previous entries. And this brought to mind a piece of advice a counselor had given me a long time ago - " You just need to forget how to stutter '' . His advice made a lot of sense to me, because while I have been stuttering ever since I was a child, I never found talking that difficult. Talking was easy to me. It only became difficult when I got social anxiety and self esteem issues. At that point stuttering became like this obstacle that prevented me from utilizing my regular speech function. I think because social anxiety makes all your muscles tense up. And that's what I think it is. Getting out of touch with stuttering for 2 weeks rebooted my speech function and removed this obstacle to some degree. It's like the anxiety part of my brain disconnected from stuttering (got out of practice with it) and so my speech was able to function like its supposed to. I am not saying that my stuttering has gone. It's still there. It's highly situational. But this was an interesting experience. ​