I'm jealous of people who don't stutter

I'm jealous of people who don't stutter Hi, first time posting here. I'm 14M, (coming on 15 in a couple weeks!!) I've had a really bad stutter for as long as I can remember; I've always found myself extremely envious of everyone around me because they could talk fluently while I never could. I've always wished more than anything to not having this defect. I dealt with a lot of mocking and outright bullying due to my stutter, all of which has led me to be really insecure and often scared to even try and speak. Due to this I also didn't make very many friends which has led me to being pretty socially inept; I can barely figure out how to have a conversation. I only have 5 friends, and even then I barely feel close to any of them besides one, a really sweet girl I recently started hanging out with more. Meaningless ramblings aside, it is normal to feel jealous, and sometimes downright envious, of people who can speak fluently?