commentr/StutterNovember 23, 2022

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In my 1st semester of engineering, i had to do a presentation for the first time and i was scared shitless. Tried to ask the teacher multiple times to let me skip it but she didn't agree. I wrote a v small presentation for a 10 min slot which would take a normal person 2-3 minutes. Practiced for weeks and even started going to speech therapy just for that presentation for a few weeks. That 2-3 min of content went to 25 minutes with me just silent for 80% of the time trying to get a word out. I was making weird faces, out of breath and basically embarrassed myself like crazy. Got the lowest marks in the class. A friend of mine prepared the presentation on the same day 2 hours before the class and got 98%. Same happened in another course of the same semester. I was getting stuck on 1 word for so long that the professor just told me to come off the stage. I just said fuck it. Skipped every presentation for the next 4 years of my degree. Not.a good or motivational story i know but just wanted to share a similar experience. Definitely don't do what i did. My life is worse for it. Can't speak a sentence right now without embarrassing myself. Just surviving on typing things out.

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Anticipation & AvoidanceEmotional ExperienceSchool & Work

Subthemes

Avoidance & SubstitutionHiding & ConcealmentShame & EmbarrassmentHelplessness & AgencySchool & Academic Life

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public_speaking