Effecting my relationship God

Effecting my relationship God If you’re religious PLEASE don’t read this so I don’t effect your beliefs. Every time I have a bad situation because of my stutter this comes to my mind “Why would god give speech for who insults him and take it from who praises him”. This comes to my mind a lot and I think because some people around me say Blasphemous words when ever they get mad. I used to pray a lot but now I don’t because I think “Why would I pray for who is making my life hell”. I know this is sad and I’m okay of you are wondering but religion is important to me and this a big deal to me and I want to get over it.