Hello my sad buddy. Yeah it sucks. If is talking such a stress for you and there is no speechtherapy that would help you, maybe you can learn the sign language and maybe find some interestinf job in this area. Or you can write your words instead of talking. Being a homeless may sound like a funny littlw adventure, but i would rather stutter in my room than under the bridge. You need now to talk to the reddit stutterers and they will give you the motivation and shate their experience. I hope you will feel better