Suffering from stammering from when I was 5 years old

Suffering from stammering from when I was 5 years old Life's getting harder every day. Idk what to do parents supports me but it's like 20% support and 80% is scolding at me or insulting me. Sometimes I think about suc**de and then I think about my parents and younger sister. People think I've ego that's I don't talk to them. But they don't know how hard it is for me to say my name if someone ask me. I dropped out of clg just cuz I've to get a job and I've to speak to the people have to go in meetings. How I'm gonna do this shit. From 2021 I've no friends from last 5 years. I'm getting depressed about what I'm gonna do in my life. So if here any of guy's know or have any kind of knowledge about if there's any kind of suppliments for stammering. If it helps to reduce stammering ATLEAST 10% that I'll be good for me. Message me if you can.