You gotta accept that you have stuttering! Be positive brooooo, I have stuttering as well and my life isn't really easier than yours or any other stutterer, but the thing is everyone has a problem and our problem is with stuttering, some people are Blind, deaf, maybe paralyzed? And we ? Assuming we are healthy not deaf, or Blind. We are all in very good shapes. I absolutely understand how bad stuttering is I had some very bad moments with it like Stuttering through the whole pressentaion infront of the whole Department of my college. Guess what people will eventually forget it. And again I do really feel what you're going through.