The Complicated Relationship With My Stutter

The Complicated Relationship With My Stutter Tomorrow will be the first anniversary of my stutter joining my life. While I have always had a little bit of a stutter throughout my life due to my cerebral palsy, when I started my internship for my BSW degree, my social anxiety spiked through the roof. It has not left my side since. Now, I always get stuttering when I am nervous, meet new people, or am in a new situation. However, the way it is now, some days it makes me negative, and I wish I could go back to my voice, sounding like it did last year before my internship. Now, I have gone to speech therapy, which has helped with techniques like diaphragmatic breathing, gentle contact, and easy onset. Also, I recently started seeing a psychiatrist along with my therapist of two years to control my anxiety more which causes the stutter, hopefully. So I am taking Zoloft and Buspar and the Buspar is new. I noticed a slight improvement, but not much so that it might need more time.  When I am by myself right now using my speech to text software to write this post, I speak clearly, but when I talk to others, including my parents, it is like a switch in my brain. I am in college right now, getting my MSW degree for school social work, but I am afraid that I will not be able to do my job if I talk the way I do now. I know that stuttering does not limit what I can achieve, and I try not to let it stop me, especially after what I learned in speech therapy. Nevertheless, my negative self-talk is so strong that sometimes I do not know what else to do. I discovered this community this morning, so I thought I would see if anyone had any recommendations and share my story to help others.