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I hate school Idk if its just the Norwegian school system who does this, but being talkative at class is so important that even if I get A’s in my written assignments they will still drag it down to a C, if I’m lucky a B just bc I don’t talk in class. I got lucky the last semester with few oral assignments, but this semester I will be having 4 oral exams, and even with that they still want me to talk in class, furthermore we will be having a bunch of oral assigments. I’m scared of the future, my life is miserable rly idk how to express how I’m feeling and thinking. If I don’t succeed in school I will be disappointing my family, already people see me as less intelligent just bc of my stutter, I don’t even see a reason for living why does life have to be so hard, is not even about school just everything. Randoms, family even the few friends I have just see me for my stutter. I really do hate myself I can’t do this no more omg why do I have to struggle with something so easy as talking? People laugh at me! I have zero self confidence and just live with anxiety and self hatred. Yes I have talked to my teachers about this and I do get to just speak to them 1v1 and film a video for “some” assignments, but the only reason I’m writing this is bc I got my grades back and they told me “You were great in your written assignments/exams.. but I do miss seeing you talking! Orally you could formulate your words better, bc of this your grades will be dragged down” something like that. How will my future look like if I live like this