Man it hurts to hit rock bottom. Take a moment to accept your Situation. Guess what, pain and suffering is the biggest motivator in our lifes. I was at the same point where it was simply to painfull to go on like this. It took me 24 years of stuttering to get to that point. I realized that I had to change. Now 2 years later I'm happier with my life and who I am than ever before.