I am just another person in a different country with the same story of yours. And all I can say is no one can really feel us. I just left an MA program because I reached a point where I lost myself, my confidence, and my purpose of living. No one will understand what am feeling now. They just keep saying easy talk( dont be afraid, just relax, ....). But I am getting to realize that I am the one who can save me, and one way to achieve this is by self-therapy. Finally, thanks alot for your words, I just appreciate how relevant this to my life.