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Vent I'm done ignoring it or pretending it will go away and I'm done trying to work towards ''fixing'' it. I can't hold a conversation with the ones I love and I can't tell jokes or include myself in conversations, I'm stuck having a constant fight with my own mind about whether I should say it or not, then the argument is settled by that god awful feeling of trying to push a simple word out and the feeling of blood flowing through my face and starting to sweat making me as red as a tomato. I try to stick to the breathing I was told to use but it just won't work, any time it happens I feel so beat down about it and it's all built up and now I'm letting it out, I can't deal with this anymore. I'm sick of people saying ''talk slowly'' it's easy for them to say both that figuratively and literally. I am sick of it