Thank you for sharing your experience. Correct me if I'm wrong.. so long story short, you began stuttering on her name, then this concept spread out to words that start with an /M/, and gradually this concept had spread out even further. The question we can then ask ourselves is, why specifically the name, and why words starting with an M? (answer: *I guess, one answer could be, because we start relying on certain concepts or we start immersing in certain beliefs, like a young elephant or a hypnotized person?!*) In your own viewpoint, is your experience comparable to the following two examples? * **Example #1**: a young elephant with one leg tied up with a small rope to a pole, recognizes the futility of the struggle to get loose, and stops trying to fight the rope. A belief is now installed that “I can’t get loose when a rope is tied to my leg.” As an adult, the elephant continues to operate this way, even when the elephant is more than capable of taking down the pole \[programmed belief\]. This elephant will stop trying to get loose as soon as a rope is tied to a leg \[maladaptive action\], even when this concept or belief is clearly obsolete or in conflict with the intentions or perceptions of our conscious mind. **In my opinion**: Now, if we compare this to your own early onset.. you developed a concept between her name \[neutral trigger\] and not continuing to initiate articulation that you had planned to say \[maladaptive action\]. This programmed belief persisted months and years later, and then spread out to words that start with an /M/, and this concept then spread out some more. Similar to the young elephant * **Example #2**: or, a hypnotist asks someone in a trance to lift a glass of water of the table after giving them the suggestion that the glass weighs a ton. You can see the person struggling and straining, attempting to lift the glass, but he cannot. While the mind of the hypnotized person is activating the muscles involved in lifting, it is also simultaneously activating muscles that resist the lift, which reflects his belief that the glass is extremely heavy. His subconscious mind is orchestrating this very complex set of activities that creates a reality coherent with his belief. Both sets of muscles are working all out to handle this glass, like an isometric exercise, so there is no net effect on the glass. In this way whatever beliefs we acquire will shape our biology. **In my opinion**: Now, if we compare this to your early onset.. I believe that in your own experience, you developed this concept to inhibit execution of speech motor plans specifically for her name, and then for words beginning with the letter M.. basically, you linked a belief to limit speech performance, so that everytime you perceive 'her name' when you say a phrase, you 'develop' or 'learn' to struggle, strain or fully immerse in the block, much like the example of the hypnotist. For example, in the beginning at early onset, if you would block on her name, you would likely activate muscles to initiate articulation while simultanously also activating muscles that resist executing speech movements, leading you to believe in the imaginary concept even more.. the more negative stutter experiences you encountered, the more you confirmed that this imaginary concept is real. "*See? I am tensing my muscles? And, see? I'm anticipating stuttering more and more now? See \[this\] and \[that\]?*" Followed by: "*So, that means I don't have the skill required to rely on automatic feedforward processes*", leading to overrelying on the feedback system (such as, monitoring and adjusting speech to the imaginary concept, or the sensation of loss of control, or stuttering anticipation). Can you resonate with these two examples? **Conclusion:** Therefore, I think that it behooves us to uncover the "learned" beliefs that we have been programmed with, and stop relying on them altogether to execute speech plans. Most of our programming arises from collective beliefs of what we might call consensual reality (what we agree within a given paradigm to accept as “real”).