First off, your parents failed you and you deserve better. If you are still in school please seek help with speech therapy. If not please feel free to reach out to me. I was born after having a stroke in the womb and had to grow/develop as a kid with a stutter and am 33 now. I live a productive life with a full-time job, have healthy friendships and a fulfilling relationship. I had often felt before that I wasn't worthy - a nuisance. I can help you with whatever guidance and assurance you need. It's a battle that can feel like a joke provoking burden you're giving onto others, but it isn't. There is good company to keep out there who are forgiving, patient and compassionate, and most people tell me my stutter is charming now if anything. You are capable of everything you desire so long as you set your mind to it. Know that you're enough. I wish you the best.