Ah ok gotcha. I was misinterpreting what you were saying. One thing I notice with my social circles is that since ppl know me as kinda quiet (but not shy) in groups but talkative in one on ones, they assumed I was just a patient listener and only spoke when I had something really good to say. So suspense would build up sort of then one day I'd drop this banger of a joke or comment and the reaction would be like 10x better than normal cuz no one expects it from me. A small happy reward for the bulk of time I'm frustratingly keeping quiet cuz of my blocks