Sounds like you need people to talk to. People who actually get you and can allow you to talk without pressure or judgement. And I think you will only get this from other stutterers. Being isolated isn't good for humans. It affects mental health and makes us more susceptible to getting illnesses. If you need someone to talk to, I'm here and so are others. You can DM me and we can schedule times to talk. Also there's the discord server. I personally generally don't use discord that often but I can connect with you there as well. My discord is dj1995.