Hey, man. I hope this comment finds you well. My name is Viktor and I am 19M from Bulgaria. I see a part of myself in your post. Maybe "saw" is a better word here. I conquered my stutter at 18, but was in a very similar position like you at 16. I too reached my lowest point - I call it my FTE - "Fuck This Event". It's an experience so bad, that you would do anything to never experience it again. Seems like you are experiencing your FTE right now. I have already made a post detailing what helped me, which you can read [here](https://www.reddit.com/r/Stutter/comments/1iej02e/how_i_conquered_my_stutter_got_jacked_at_the_same/). I now help stutterers here on Reddit, as well as Discord and YouTube. I host weekly weekend meetings on the Discord Stuttering Group, which you are welcome to join. I have already helped multiple people via these chats and I would love to help you. You can add me on every social media and DM me. I truly believe stuttering can be removed as a problem from your life. Anyone can do so. Notice how I didn't say cured? I still stutter sometimes, BUTT it is so unnoticeable that people on the Internet actually began doubting if ever stuttered. Funny, right? I turned my stutter into a reason to become the best speaker I can and it shows. I don't experience presentation anxiety, anymore. People come up to me asking for speaking tips XD. I felt the pain you are experiencing right now. I was depressed also. I cried many times before falling asleep because of stuttering. I felt like people were talking behind my back constantly. I dreaded presentations, my heart was beating out my chest before them. I agree with you - I didn't want to "just accept it". I hated when I stuttered. I gave it my all to try to get myself out of this mess, this curse of mine. More details on what I did are explained in the post. Now, I freely talk about that I am a stutterer, though I am 95% fluent. I am proud of being a stutterer, because this hard period of my life made me more resilient, built me a fit body and sharpened my mind. It is also responsible for my business startup. All in all, I am thankful that I stuttered (I realize how crazy that must sound to you right now.). In 2 years (if you give it your all to seek speech improvement), I think you will come to the same conclusion. I have a couple of ending thoughts: 1. I also was a hidden extrovert, who believed he was destined to be an introvert because of stuttering. I now love talking to new people. Needless to say, your family situation isn't ideal. I would suggest really explaining what you feel to them, or just showing them this post. That was my first step to getting out of my own personal FTE. 2. I disagree on the paywall point. In any therapy (speech therapy included) the price is there to ensure your commitment. When you are paying a fee, you are determined to soak everything that is being said in the therapy and аpply it. If it was free, you wouldn't take it seriously - you would skip sessions, make excuses to not do the work, etc. I have another metaphor. Suppose you are a smoker and want to quit. The most effective first step is to buy an expensive pack of cigarettes and throw them in the bin. Now you are materially behind. You already have sunk costs associated with your decision to stop smoking. Which makes it easier to stay on track. Also, nobody's time can be given away for free. That's another reason for the price tag. Аnd at least that speech therapist or other kind of doctor is trained, while the random guy on the Internet, who "regurgitates whether shit they told him" isn't. You will get more value from the doctor than the guy on the Internet. 3. I hope you get better soon. Really consider having that video call on Discord. I would love to talk to you face to face.