30-year-old here. I've felt the same way. Sometimes, I still feel that way. As difficult as it sounds, at some point you just gotta say fuck it and start enjoying your life. Try to make life easier for yourself where you can. Find something(s)/someone(s) that bring you happiness. Laugh a little louder. Stop being so self conscious. Easier said than done, but coming from a guy who's felt a lot of what you're feeling, it can be done. I'm not saying you won't have bad days, but you'd be surprised how great life can be when you stop beating yourself up. The world is a pretty interesting place, and there's a lot of options out there (for fun, work, self-improvement). As for actual practical advice... Be genuine, put in effort, and think outside of the box. You may have to work a little harder/smarter than others but you can have a great social life and career. For instance, I've focused a lot of my efforts into areas unaffected by my stutter - better writing, listening, understanding, strategy, etc. Sorry for the ramble post... But I just felt the need to post something in response to a post that hit so close to home. Having a stutter isn't easy. You should remind yourself once in awhile of what a boss you are for living life despite it. P.S. To op, getting a job in your field out of school is difficult, but it can be done. Use all the resources available to you (online advice, your network, your school career center, etc.). Don't just apply and wait, apply and follow up with whoever you can contact. Glhf!