hey as someone who's earliest memory of stuttering is waking up on christmas for my "n64" christmas and the night before i remember not stuttering this was around age 5... im 35 now and i've blamed everyone/everything i could and hated myself...my best advice is as hard as it may be to accept u have to accept it and realize god gave u this for a reason i was never a religous person but now knowing no matter what happens jesus or whatever religion u believe in will always love u...if u ever wanna talk me and im sure many people here will be here for u