Stuttering is ruining my life.

Stuttering is ruining my life. Stuttering is literally ruining my life. Whenever I go to conversate with strangers (or with most relatives), I'm not even able to pronounce the first letter of the sentence, except sometimes eventually, after trying. Even if I pronounce it, I struggle with the rest of the letters and words. I keep repeating the same letters, words and even keep saying 'aaaaaa' between letters and words. I usually can't pronounce two words at a time, and I often am not able to complete the sentence I was trying to say, as if something is blocking my throat and preventing me from saying anything. But when I'm talking alone, stuttering doesn't exist. I'm really struggling with this and I need to hear from people who’ve been through this. I've been dealing with this for over 3 years now, and it’s having a serious impact on my confidence, social life, and even relationships. It feels like it controls every conversation I have, and I’m tired of avoiding situations just because I’m scared to speak. If you used to stutter and managed to reduce or even stop it, I’d really appreciate hearing your story. What worked for you? Did you try speech therapy, breathing techniques, mindfulness, apps, or anything else? What helped the most, and how long did it take. If you have anything helpful, please don't ignore this post. 🙏