Stutter getting worse. I'm fighting against impossible odds for wanting a better life.

Stutter getting worse. I'm fighting against impossible odds for wanting a better life. Im 22. I had been a literal shut in for 2.5-3 years and browsed various social anxiety, incel and stuttering forums all day. Suffice to say even though I was jolly and extroverted when I was young, I become more and more reclusive, anxious, depressed and insane in my shut in years though I'm nowhere near as bad now as I've escaped myself shut in years over the past 4-5 months. My stutter did improve considerably for a brief moment and it got to a point of 3-4 second blocks at most. So recently ive really tried to make a conscious effort for a better life. Ive really really tried. One of the things I did was improv. Initially I was really good at it cause that pause created that tension that would be hilarious. My stutter wasn't that bad. However very recently in the past month it's started again. It's come back with a vengeance. My pauses are longer and it's every third word. I bombed hard today at improv and made everyone I worked with uncomfortable. This triggered the realization of my situation and what I'm up against. I literally don't stand a chance. My stutter partly causes social anxiety, insecurity and fear which is what caused me to be a shut in, in the first place. I have maybe a couple of friends and even then, if I didn't message them they'd never get back to me (I tried this and it's eaxclty what happened). I have to haul my ass out every single day to go out and do stuff because otherwise I would essentially lay down and rot and go almost insane like I did in the past 2-3 years. When it comes to women, I am a blackpilled incel. Google that I suppose. My social anxiety, lack of social skills and stutter make me into a completely unlikable unattractive to anyone and I don't blame them tbh. I can't connect with them and when I approach them the stuttering block makes me look autistic. I can't be the top dog dominant man that I want to be and be the kind of guy who strives for better and the kind of guy people look up to. So I combine all this shit together and I realize the odds are completely fucking against me. I'm well below average and fighting such a steep uphill battle that I just can't win. So much shit is piled up against me that it's almost statistically unlikely and certain that I'll never have good friends or a social circle, never escape inceldom or have any kind of relationship with a woman and I'll never get as far in my career as Id like to. At the end of the day the vast majority of guys if they put in as much effort as I do they can easily have all these things, and given the limited amount of resources in the world we are all competing for they will win. And I wouldn't have fucking stood a chance cause the odds were impossibly against me anf my stutter and the problems it caused held me back. Bring on the useless therapy comments and how I should drop $5k on crap that doesn't work.