Feel envious of normal speaking ppl…

Feel envious of normal speaking ppl… I know this sounds weird but at times I look at regular ppl speaking and they speak so fluently and effortlessly and make other people laugh, make friends through conversations, and just feel comfortable in their own atmosphere. It makes me jealous of them and feel like I would be doing the same things if I could just speak like a normal person. Does anyone else feel like this or just me?