I understand the feeling of hopelessness. Reddit is a great outlet if you’re ever feeling down and depressed. Seriously, there are people who want to listen and help. You’re never alone on here. And my mistake haha, I combined regular and speech therapy. Take advantage of any therapy, for it does tend to produce incredible results if you’re set on change. You have support on here. Your thoughts are temporary, passing things. Don’t be afraid to ask for help. People want you to live and see the joys that life has to offer :)