Financial independence Vs Fear

Financial independence Vs Fear I'm 23 F. I've only worked fast food jobs during summertime. I'm still in college. I have to find a job to have my own money and be able to get away from my controlling mother. But I'm terrified. I don't have self confidence, I feel worthless, I have anxiety and maybe even depression. I find adulthood and standing on my own feet so so daunting. I get so stressed and hopeless at times, I feel suicidal. I'm SO SO scared and terrified. I feel weak. I don't know what to do. I don't want to work at fast food jobs again, i prefer an office setting that will be beneficial to my cv and related to my studies. But I'm terrified. Remote Customer service jobs seem to be of demand but I don't know if I can do it.