Man the fuck up and don't let this shit control you. Think of everything you have overcome despite of your stutter. You went to an Ivy league, you're making 6 figures. You're literally on the top of maybe <5% of all Americans and you did that with a huge burden on you. You got through life and did what less than a few tens of thousand people are able to do. Out of the billions in the world. And you're gonna let it win this easily despite of your accomplishments? Fuck that shit. Focus your mind on doing things you enjoy so you're not always dreading work. You certainly have the money and opportunity to do so.