Hey man, I can appreciate what you are going through. But it sounds like you need therapy. A Reddit pep talk is not going to cut it. You will need real coping tools to deal with the problems you are having. Having said that, I will take a stab. The most important thing is some perspective. You were born with a real disability, no doubt. But people are born with much more severe mental and physical challenges than what you have. People are born with IQs of 70 or below. People are born with limbs missing. People are born who will never walk. People are born blind. So what you have is tough, but not as tough as some. One thing to do is to take stock in what you do have. I assume you are young and have your health. Do things a lot that you do well. Take part in solo athletic activities - running, working out. Take pride in your body and what it can do. Make it look as best you can. So yes, you will still be a weirdo that cannot talk right, but you will have a hot body. If you end up liking running, join running meetups. Probably not much talking there - just running. Perhaps you should not give up on some kind of degree. It does not have to be a 4 year degree from a college. Learn a trade. If you can fix cars or work in construction or something like that, there can be very good money in it, and you may not have to talk to people much. Just work on the car, etc. You will be surprised at how cooworkers and bosses will accommodate your disability, as long as you can do the rest of your job well. Yea, you will not make it in sales, but you can make it in something. Socially it will be a tough road. Speech is pretty key in social interactions. But here is a hope - stuttering sometimes gets easier with age. Don't give up on speech therapy if you can afford it. Even small improvements are something. But I know it's tough to get better at this. But it does not have to mean all of your life has to suck. One thing you can do socially is take part in stuttering support groups if you have live meetups for this. People will not judge you there, and you can make friends, even meet women.