Smh. Watch some bitch say some magical shit like "it all gets better" it wont especially not for me or you. I feel the exact same but I'm 14. Honestly if I was u I would find a job u can. Basically Function as a mute in. And completely abandon the thought of freinds. Or a partner and just find a hobby u can do all alone. Yep it's a sad FUCKING LIFE. If a 14 yearold kid can deal with it, so can you. So dont end yourself pls.