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How my stuttering got better Hey fellow stutters, Lately I've been feeling very good about my stuttering, which is why I decided to write a little post on this subreddit, maybe it will help you too. First of all: This actually hasn't anything to do with stuttering, the stuttering part is merely a side effect. And it WON'T heal your symptons, at least it didn't for me. I've been reading the book *"The Power of Now"* by German author Eckhard Tolle. It's a very spiritual book, a little difficult to understand in the beginning. I won't go in too much detail about it, but I strongly recomend reading it (You can get the audiobook for free if you never used Audible before). The main point he is making is to only concentrate on the present and to not identify yourself with your thoughts (Your mind is just a tool - not your identity). Only concentrating on and living in the present means not thinking about the future. Not about the next year, not about the next minute, not about the next second. I found out that stuttering isn't that bad. What really fucks with me is the anxiety that comes with it. That uneasy feeling, seconds before you start to talk, or the feeling in your stomach when you think about that presentation next week. To make it even harder, this anxiety makes your (or at least my) stuttering a lot worse. Your muscles tighten, even before you start to speak, so talking itself gets harder. Not living in the future made this anxiety disappear. Right now in this moment, nothing is wrong. If I decide to live right now and not let my mind wander into the future, I feel very relieved. My stuttering is still there - everyone I talk to instantly notices it. But that's alright, as long as you don't think about this little problem as the only thing that gives your life identity. Which is what generally happens, when you think about it all the time. You think about how and when you might stutter in the future and how embarrassing it will be. You think about how you stuttered in the past and how bad it was. Every little thought about this makes the anxiety a little stronger, until you're so afraid to talk, you decide to hide from the world. Your stuttering might be permament, but your anxiety certainly isn't. This is what made a huge difference for me, it might be worth giving it a try.