It’s a process but it sounds like you have a good friend group. My son is now in his freshman yr in college doing well. It becomes a part of who you are, his friends are still the ones he had from growing up. 9th grade sucks in general , you have a lot going on with puberty. W my son we could never figure out what set it off worse. Being tired, excited , mad never seems to matter. Just seeing a Therapist to talk out how you feel will help a lot. Speech therapy can help too. Just enjoy life and don’t get so hung up on it. You got this! Reach out and let me know how you are doing. 💪