To answer everyone, No i am not in school. I flunked my first semester in all 4 classes with grades ranging from 11-34 . Ive been kicked out of the school and denied fafsa for the next year. The school i go to didnt provide me with help from handicaps like they’re supposed to and with my highschool gpa from also doing the same thing (avoiding major talking assignments and never turning other work in because im so unmotivated) and i had to go to this college because i cant afford anything else and can barely afford this school . My mom also nags me about this too even though i now can not do anything about it. Yes I have a therapist, ive had multiple therapist consecutively since i was 8 years old. No one understands and no matter how much you talk about it they ask the same stuff and you cant tell them anything without being hospitalized. I refuse to be hospitalized im not fucking crazy these are normal fucking feelings for almost everyone now and i shouldnt be made to feel bad about it. I might be a total screw up in the sense i have no job and dont go to school but im not insecure about anything other than my stutter and I refuse to be made out that I need to be hospitalized because of this. ive been in speech therapy also since i was 3 and my stutter first started. Ive progressively gotten worse In texas you can actually go to jail for lying about handicaps you have or dont have on your resume. Im kind of forced to put it . My family is my mom my grandma and i. none of them are okay with me not working and going to school. I have to do both no exceptions. Theyre both rich but wont pay for my school or anything to even remotely help me. Im already $5500 in debt because of college and i honestly think its a bunch of bullshit. I was going to pursue cosmetology but i cant go to school 5 days a week and not work. Moms wishes or ill be put out on the street I really have no options here other than moving out and winging it and i have no money to do that, its cold, and id have nowhere to go or stay besides a bridge Also, forgot to mention above but i have several physical handicaps that dont allow me to apply for jobs that require heavy lifting , standing or alot of bending. I have severe nerve damage from spinal stenosis and i have 2 bulging disks, 1 slipped disk, and a tilted sacrum or tailbone. Alot of pain everyday . Also a contribution to my shitty quality of life