U cant live normally. U just have to accept u are some kind of "freak" . Unlike other disabilities u wont get any help or pity just laughs. The best think u can do is try to find some hobby that will make u feel better and try to survive. We will probably never find true love or no real friends. Most people think we are retarded for not being able to speak even tho we are probably smarter then them. No women will ever love us and society will judge us for not being able to keep up even tho we cant do the main thing to thrive in it. We were born unlucky and that is what it is. U can fight it or be bitter about it... Ur choice.