In real life it feels just good. The 'not alone' feelings. And that's good. But for me it's hard to watch woman stutter on YouTube. Bc I 'see myself', and I hate that. Weird, bc in real life I don't mind if it's a man or a woman. But I forced myself to watch woman on YouTube who stutter. Just to face my fears. To get used to it, and to see that 'it is what it is.'