it constantly feels like my stutters a secret...

it constantly feels like my stutters a secret... My stutter is usually in the form of blocks usually when I’m starting out in my sentences it feels like I’m not breathing properly. So I block or pause. Since my stutter is somewhat mild i can hid (covert) it easily. Well most of the time loll. But it is so much of a struggle to hid it all the time it’s like an inconvenience to talk. Well I’m mostly hiding it because I’m embarrassed by it and ashamed 😔I just don’t feel like I’m up to that point of self acceptance yet