The fact that you trust your family is a good start. I would definitely encourage you to not let your stutter lock you out of potential relationships, if that is something you desire. There is SO much more to being a good partner than speaking well, and I can tell you with confidence that it won't matter to your partner at least 90% of the time. You mentioned that you do not trust people to laugh at you, but have you ever tried laughing at yourself? As I have gotten older I've learned to laugh at myself, which has opened up a whole new series of thinking in that maybe people aren't laughing at me judgingly, but rather just because how I stuttered or what I stuttered on is just simply funny. Funny in the same way as if I just tripped on a rock; not in a "what an idiot" way. I was playing pictionary once with a few friends and had the stutterers worst nightmare. The word I had to illustrate was "stutter". Of course this is near impossible, so I was unable to illustrate it. The whole time I was panicking about having to say the word that I know I would not be able to say. So it eventually came time for me to say it, and just had a complete block. I said "ss-ss-s.. the word is "sst-ss". Then I laughed and showed my friends the card and followed it up with "this is like a sick joke". My friends laughed, not at me but at the irony of the situation, and we talked a bit about how absurd of a word that is to illustrate. Tldr: speaking is not the most important part of a relationship, and don't sell yourself short. You have the advantage of knowing almost immediately if someone you are pursuing a relationship with is an asshole or not. A lot of people don't have that ability and won't know until it's too late.