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It's something that I've been thinking about alot lately also. When I first started interviewing for jobs 14/15 years ago I wasn't surprised by peoples reactions, to be honest I was pretty much expecting negative reactions, but in 2020 I was hoping people would be alot more open minded. I think alot of stutterers feel the same way about other peoples reactions. I nearly always break eye contact by either looking down or closing my eyes for a second or two, because like you I hated to see peoples reactions. I'm really try to stay calm and composed but as soon as I see interviews becoming uncomfortable or frustrated then I lose my train of thought and I start to panic. I remember one interview that I had with a CEO and his young HR assistant that was an absolute disaster and really sticks in my mind. I was asked what I knew about the company, and even though I was prepared for that question, I blocked on nearly every second word and started to tap my foot to get the words out. Needless to say, the interviewers were really shocked by this and when I eventually got the answer out I looked at both of them and my heart sank. The CEO looked confused and actually quite annoyed, like I was wasting his time, and the young HR girl's face was bright red and she looked stunned. They asked me another few questions but the damage was done, I had totally lost control of my stutter and the CEO was now taking deep breaths and looking at his watch while the HR girl looked down at her notes and probably wished that she was anywhere but in that room. When I left the interview I was literally shaking and holding back tears, it was a horrible experience and one that I always dread that I'm going to repeat one day. I totally agree with you though, the public really need to be educated about stuttering and there needs to be more educational campaigns for HR and hiring managers on how to handle situations were they are faced with a person with a speech impediment. I remember when the movie The Kings Speech came out there was alot of buzz on the impact a stutter can have on somebody, but like most things, it didn't last long unfortunately.