commentr/StutterApril 20, 2023

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>never rely on any thought, feeling, experience or sensation in order to decide whether to hold back speech (such as halting respiratory, laryngeal or articulatory muscles) (argument: because it's not a fluency law and it will only enable us to pay more attention to sensory feedback. Additionally, this helpful belief/attitudes makes depending on anticipatory fear pointless which may lead to acting how I want to feel. Normally, stuttering seems to be random because triggers are random, however, this could be compensated by replacing the 'control: triggers' with the 'control: focusing on intention, being nervous and breathing calmly'.) ​ >resist compulsions and rituals (e.g., resist: holding back speech, secondaries, avoidance-behaviors, coping mechanisms, overthinking, overreacting and panic responses) (argument: to aim for unlearning 'learned behaviors') Both these things I can relate to very much. I always feel like I KNOW when I will stutter and when I won't. I always have severe anticipatory anxiety/fear when I think I 'know' I will stutter. My mind 100% makes me believe I know when I will and won't stutter. I believe I actually know when I will stutter and when I won't. This makes me \*hold back speech\* when I think I will stutter. I also avoid stuttering by using all sorts of loopholes, like switching words with english words (mother language) and other tricks. In my OP I mentioned that panic disorder I went through. Complete hell. But, I learned that the thing FUELING this disorder, was my FEAR towards having new panic attacks. Basically insane anticipatory anxiety towards new panic attacks. It was 9 months (minimum) of hell. I learned about facing panic attacks, using Claire Weekes' methods. Basically, that the cure for panic attacks are to be found by 100% facing panic attacks without fighting it. To complete let it consume you. This is what cured my panic disorder. It was life-changing. To quote Claire Weekes: "Recovery lies in the places and experiences you fear the most." This quote is what I live(d) by. It is what got me out of a very dark place. I feel like my stutter is highly likely due to some subconscious anxiety/fear. Like a lot of people, when I'm alone, speaking loud, I have no stutter. Talking to my pets, no stutter. When I have to talk to people, stutter and stutter-anxiety comes in. For me, it has to be true that my stutter is due to fear/anxiety/overthinking, instead of 'something you just have'. Why do I just have it with people? So, on one hand, I feel like I need to 'face' my anticipatory fear and to willingly stutter whenever I feel I cannot speak. If I read your post correctly, do you also agree with this approach? Thank you so much.

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Anticipation & AvoidanceCauses & VariabilityCoping & AdvocacyEmotional Experience

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Anticipating StutteringAvoidance & SubstitutionOverthinking & MonitoringTrauma & PsychologicalVoluntary Stuttering & ExposureAnxiety & Social Judgment

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anticipation