Ugh that sucks. I totally know what you mean. It bugs me too. But I can’t believe that I am not being my best self. I don’t want to be trapped by stuttering anymore. I try to capitalize on the little wins, and try to find something positive out of each situation. Even showing up is enough!! Showing patience with participation, is also a win. I’ve really started to measure my “progress” and growth by how much I show up, with the intention of having it go well (which doesn’t necessarily imply fluency!). I still stutter a bit but it’s way easier accepting I won’t be perfect, and just trying. Even one month of practice can make a huge difference. Also, check out a Toastmasters meeting. It helps me.