We all relate, I do too. I've had many suicidal thoughts but I keep thinking about 2 things. 1) what happens after death, do we deserve another life if we take our own? 2) what of i beat my stuttering or prove that I can be successful with it, will it make me better than everyone else since people who stutter basically playing life in hardcore mode? I choose second. I trully believe i can achieve things with problem or beat it completely. Its hardcore man. But i believe just like there is a bigger reward in a video game if you beat it on harder level, there is a bigger reward in life if you get successful with your hardcore problems. Only positive thoughts, we are all hardcore players!