>What did I do to deserve this? NOTHING. It's not your fault! IT'S. NOT. YOUR. FAULT. What country do you live in? Those attitudes from the people around sound incredibly ignorant. Is there a lack of awareness of stutter in your part of the world? That last part is important: >**I don't want to hide or run away from the problem anymore.** I know there are people who are open about it and **accept it** but that's so hard. I don't want to be seen as **disabled or different**. I want to be **normal** and I want to be **accepted**. Idk what to do anymore. If it won't go away, I want to **embrace it** but I can't **accept** the fact that it's real. Sounds to me like you have both external and internal pressure. From your surroundings, you're not going to get any support. I think you shouldn't count on that, at least, in case you get let down. From yourself, you have to reach a different understanding. Stutter is stutter. This means it's both a thing that's there and that you can't do anything about*, and also that it's _just_ a thing that's there, and it's not something you've caused or are in any way responsible for. *: Speech therapy can be effective, of course. Apart from that, you're going to have to allow yourself to be someone who stutters, because that's the circumstance you're in. Don't expect or demand the impossible from yourself. You may be able to improve your management of your stutter, but you've got to get into a different mindset!