postr/StutterAugust 31, 2020

No Acting, Opening A Startup, LIFE

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No Acting, Opening A Startup, LIFE Hey guys, it's my first post here. I'm 17 and I kinda have a severe level stuttering. It all started when I was 4. My father noticed that I couldn't even able to say my name back then. Throughout my whole life, I faced rejections, bullies, shit-talking. I mean like I faced possibly everything. I don't know what to do anymore. I'm starting college next year. As you all know, COVID kinda messed up every university fund and as I'm an international, maybe I will have to attend several interviews. But, I really don't have any freaking idea how I will be able to give those. My dream is to become an entrepreneur, actor. But I don't think I will be able to achieve my dreams. Just because of this annoying thing. Even if I get into a US university, I have no fucking idea how I'm gonna communicate with my roommates, professors, etc. I can't even say, my fathers' name. I stutter when I try to pronounce my name. I lost countless opportunities just because of this thing. I can't do this anymore. I'm scared of talking with someone. I don't answer messenger calls, phone calls. I can't even face a girl. I'm lost. Is that it? This is the end?

Themes

Anticipation & AvoidanceEmotional ExperienceSchool & Work

Subthemes

Feared Words & NamesAvoidance & SubstitutionShame & EmbarrassmentAnxiety & Social JudgmentHelplessness & AgencyEmployment & Career

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