Hey! I'm super sorry to hear your relationship of 6 years is over. That must've been super tough. Please know there are still plenty of people out there. It just takes time, effort and you DARING to go out and about. (Be it dating apps, or literally going out). Don't let fear tell you what to do or not to do. > It’s horrible looking for synonyms mid-sentence because you know that you won’t be able to say that word. Yes, I've done this my whole life, and I still do so sometimes. Not as much as before, but I've certainly done this thousands of time during the first few years of my current relationship. Substituting was my main trick. > I want to feel again in a safe space when talking to someone I’m interested in. You just need to realize these people still exist - people who will make you feel safe and loved for who you are. Literally. You'll be amazed how many genuine women (and men) are out there that wouldn't care about you having a stutter. There are lots of people out there that just want a genuine relationship with a genuine person, which goes beyond having a stutter. Say no to fear, enjoy life. You don't HAVE to follow your fears. We choose to. We choose to believe they are 'probably true', which then results in us truly thinking there is a real threat. Hope this helps somewhat!