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today Went to the clinic just now... d4mn I felt dumb as f* bcs the receptionist ask me the same question 3 times, she thought I didn't hear her, it's just that I have a block for a few moment lmao. After I successfully get my words out, she gave me the "idgaf" attitude... for some reason It's a little comforting to see someone that don't give a weird look or ask why the hell I speak like a weirdo. I answer some questions she ask ALMOST fluently (mirroring her attitude lessen my anxiety lol) until she gave me the date for the appointment... I got brief panic bcs the date is on the same day for my bank appointment, I explain the appointment need to be on another day and god knows how much I stutter when explaining this but I just let myself stutter bcs i don't care anymore and she also don't care (woah achievement!) I also saw my primary school teacher before entering the clinic... this might sounds like im an a**hole bcs I straight up ignored her. She need to understand it's been years already (i even forgot her name) and not everyone have the time for useless chit chat. (this is the same teacher that gave me weird look everytime I stutter. I have the right to forget her face and her name) P/s: I still stutter even when i'm alone so I don't think my stutter is bcs of anxiety but anxiety makes my stuttering worse, that's all.