i really find joy when i speak to people but i hate it when i stutter , like sometimes i visualize myself doing videos making people laugh , having interesting debates but it is hard for me just yesterday i did a presentation in my university but looking back at it , it was a disaster i even had to apologize a couple of times , it was so awkward i am going to be completely honest what hurts me is that i am not fluent and i do not like the thought of it