postr/StutterMay 6, 2021

Hasn't the same thing ever happened to you?

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Hasn't the same thing ever happened to you? So I just had an oral test, roman law (yay very interesting) and I really studied a lot for this but today I felt like my teacher asked me the easiest question and not the longest because I am a stuttered. I passed but still I felt it wasn't good enough I always felt and still feel that I am not treated like everyone else and that they feel pity for me. I really don't want to have things easy just because of my speech impediment, in fact, it makes me angrier. I prefer someone who is straightforward and tells me "Your stuttering is very annoying", or "Take your time talking, it's no problem". I wish I had elaborated more on what I had studied but I just couldn't. I hate giving pity, sometimes in previous years I would hear people say "Oh how sweet" after I explained something in class. I want them to respect me not pity me, I want them to say "oh what a man", every time I feel like I will never be treated like someone normal, in the sense that only people will say something to me to make me feel good or think "I'm cute" when the reality is that I have a really hard time talking and it just makes me angrier. Like no one takes me seriously. After the class, it was inevitable not to cry a little and then feel the anguish and angriness towards me for being the way I am. I really consider myself the depressive and realistic type of stutterer.

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Anticipation & AvoidanceEmotional ExperienceIdentity & Disability

Subthemes

Avoidance & SubstitutionShame & EmbarrassmentFrustration & AngerAnxiety & Social JudgmentIdentity & Self-Perception

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perceived_judgment