god damn conversations

god damn conversations yall know why im here. i STUTTER. not to much but enough to be a huge inconvenience, when im bouta stutter i just pause for a few mins so i don't sound lie an idiot. my friend who i talk o every day is used to it but uuuuuuugh i HATE talking to new people. i talk soooooooooooooooo quiet and stumble so much and even i rehearse what i say it just UUUUUUUUUUUUUGH IT NEVER COMES OUT RIGHT!!!!!!!!!! im not threatening AT ALL because of it and it really fucking sucks because when i want people to leave me alone i sound like im scared. i had a panic attack today and was stuttering so much i had to stop speaking mostly for like half an hour just to try stop. GODMOTHERFUCKING DAMN IT!!!!!!!!!